Few days ago since I have created this account and I guess that you are asking for what this blog all about? Honestly until now, I don’t know also. In the meantime, I just want to share with you my life here in Bahrain. I am working and at the same time staying in a hotel for almost two years by now. My daily routine is home – office – home. Once in a blue moon before I can go outside, no social life at all and no Church on Sundays. Sometime I went to shopping center with a very limited time, two hours is long enough for the management, and they will start calling to ask where I am and what time I will come back. By the way we are allowed to go out but before that we need permission slip signed by the managing director. But then we cannot ask from time to time because he will raise so many questions then at the end he will not sign. So what for? I am just making my day stressful and mad. That’s why I prefer to stay at home most of the time. They are very strict and everybody is feeling like a prisoner here. But according to the management, they are doing this for our safety.
There are times also that I felt so bad, I am craving for some foods but I cannot buy from outside. We are not cooking here, our foods is free but the staff foods would be fried or boiled egg, burger, sausage, fried chicken, fried fish, mutton and overcooked mixed vegetables, usually eggplant, bitter melon, carrots, cauliflower, and potatoes. From time to time, I am calling for foods delivery from other restaurants but little costly because I need to order according to their pricing brackets to avail delivery service. I have to budget my money too, foods, personal supplies, monthly supports for my family and my monthly amortization for housing loans. Really, it is difficult to manage especially nowadays; our salary was delayed for four months. Though they are giving small amount of money for those with urgent needs, too much begging like asking of cash advance to be reciprocated in the future as debt of gratitude where in fact we are just getting our salaries which should be our own money already. Another thing, we will be receiving half salary for March because of the demonstrations during that month here in Bahrain. They said we have few guests and very small sales, so half-salary, too. The situation is really sad and I do understand that we have financial crisis now but giving our salaries late and less is degrading morally and professionally.
Everybody is crying but no one wants trouble so it’s better to accept and follow their rules whatever it is. Like me, I just want to go back to my home country soon but not easy too. We’ll go without salaries if we want to leave now or else, wait until they have raised funds for salaries and plane ticket. Well I would say I am not lucky as others do but I am still thankful for this life. I know that I am destined to be here for some reasons. Behind all these, I have learned to endure long suffering in life, I got chance to be patient too, I can stay at home now, practice centering myself and appreciate even the smallest and simplest things that I have. Then, I am praying also for all of us here to become strong in fighting depressions and hope to be healthy. I am still looking forward for this company to grow and improve their financial stability. Today, all I can say is… to wait… wait.. and wait.. I missed my family, my friends and my freedom!